sugar lips

sometimes as a mom i find myself with my heart overflowing with love for one of my kids. i try to remember those times because we all know there are times when our frustration is overflowing as well. so, today i am totally in love with my little ethan, and (right now) here is why:

1.ethan has the personality of a 10 year old.
this is something i have never seen in a kid before. he can hold his own with kids four times his size and loves it. even when his brothers aren't around he makes up with any kid and acts like he is just as old (and smart)as they are. many of them are extremely shocked that a 'baby' like him can talk.

2. ethan is totally oblivious to the fact that he has no hair!
i personally love his bald head and am a little sad that sometimes the back of his head looks nappy since i'm so used to no hair to nap. deep down i probably love it most because it still lets him look like my baby. we sing a veggie tales song about not having hair for our hairbrush. when i ask ethan if that song is about him, he just laughs and says......noooooo...... its about larry (the cucumber who sings the song).the way he says it is like that's the silliest question ever asked too!

3. ethan is the friendliest little guy you'd ever meet.
talk about a kid who doesn't know a stranger. whenever he meets someone new they quickly become a friend for life. he's pretty good about getting my consent first but then he makes right up and has even been known to kiss family members or grandma types he's never met before if they are smart enough to ask.

4. ethan has a cackle that is infectious.
No one can force a frown when ethan is laughing. he loves life and has a great sense of humor. how can you stop chasing him around the house when your reward is a whole hearted belly chuckle?!


5. ethan makes you realize what you sound like when you talk.
be careful of this one. he has been known to really let his brother have it! i just can't help but really watch myself when my 2 year old screams "you kidding me!? keey-lub". its hard to keep a straight face especially because he's really mad about whatever injustice he feels was done.

6. ethan loves to love.
he carries around his stuffed critters, baby doll, whatever he feels needs taken care of. he loves to cuddle and gives the best kisses. he also is the first to climb into my lap with a book and strokes my hair and tells me 'you preeeety mommy!" who could not give in to such blackmail?!

i'm not sure if i have a soft spot in my heart for a middle child and this is the reason ethan is so special to me, or if he really is a cool kid. i'll take the latter. i love all my kids, but right now i'm totally in awe of the cool kid ethan is and the extreme blessing i have to have him as my son. i sometimes think our father in heaven must really miss us at times. i know he misses ethan a lot of the time and i feel so blessed to be in trusted to raise him.
i love you sugarlips!

to PIT or not to PIT

here's my beef with pitocin......
caleb start to finish pitocin. i probably had 10 bags of it by the time he was actually here.
ethan- i had maybe 1 after he was born.
garet- i had 2 after he was born and i had to put my foot down about not having it before.
so.....i stepped on a scale yesterday. just for kicks, i am only 3 weeks out but feeling pretty good. i couldn't believe it, i am only 5 pounds away from regular weight!! yes i do stay pretty active, i walked caleb to school only 5 days after garet was born and went back to playing volleyball only 15 days after (don't tell my dr.!). but i can only accredit the quickness of getting back into shape to pitocin after birth! this is so weird to me, being that i was so adamant about not being induced, but
here i am just 1 week before arrival:


and here i am just 3 weeks after arrival:


i still have a ways to go and i am in no means bragging about how i look (to my benefit the belly flab can't be seen through a shirt!) but i am torn between the benefits of pit and the un-natural-ness of this drug. just something i wanted to get off my chest.

now i know you are all on here wondering who the heck cares and looking for pictures of the boys, so i will close for now and promise a real blog sometime later this week about the boys.